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I never knew what mind can do until I tested my own mind to see well.  See my previous posts how it all started Seeing Miracle and a follow up a week or so later at Seeing Miracle Continues.

It’s been 7 months now since I took my glasses and never again I put them back on.  For the people who read my previous posts, you are probably wondering if it really works, how my vision is now.

Also, I came across a discussion board on the web where my website and my post “Seeing Miracle” was mentioned.  I could not believe all the skeptics out there who were a majority.  One tried to walk without glasses, but at the end he put the glasses back on.  Next day, he got a headache and vowed to never try this again.  Next, others were wondering why squinting does not work all the time.  They were discussing Bates method, and some were even furious about misleading information.  There is a huge discussion going on, and most people liked the “safety” behind their glasses and were afraid to persist.  I totally understand them.  It is pretty scary to go out when all you see is a blur.

After reading this discussion board, I checked my eyesight according to the chart.  I did not use the chart for awhile.  I read 20/40 with absolutely no problem.  This is by the way a legal vision for driver’s license in Florida.  Then I even read 20/30 line without any problems.  Then 20/25 was next.  I read that, too.  20/20 was a bit blurry, but with a little eye adjustment (by blinking and breathing a bit), I read the whole 20/20 line.  That’s the first time ever I was able to read the whole 20/20 line!  I was so excited.  My right eye is usually weaker.  So, before I read only a half of the line.  Pretty good, isn’t it?

I wish my 20/20 vision would stay without an eye adjustments.  My vision still fluctuates from around 20/30, 20/25 to 20/20.  Lately, probably from 20/25 to 20/20.  My eyesight adjustment now comes naturally.  I do not squint.  Squinting just stresses our eyes and might give us a headache.  I deeply breathe, blink my eyes, stay in the sun whenever I get the chance.  It comes so easy that I do not even think about it.

I train my mind to see through everything.  Sure, on stressful or cloudy days, it becomes a bit blurrier.  Sure, it would be so easy to put the comfort blanket – eyeglasses on, but I refuse to do so.  I am persistent to see no matter what.  So, with more adjustment, I see well again.

On happy days, I have prolonged great vision without adjustments.  Also, I find if I look into computer for a long time, my eyes become more blurry.  Then I take a break, or change my vision field by looking someplace else.

Also, my success depends on my attitude.  I do not concentrate on what I do not see.  I concentrate on what I’m seeing instead.  I am super excited to see things that I only required eyeglasses to see.

I am so in love with the world I am seeing:  larger than I used to see through my glasses.  So, this is what I learned in my journey:

1) Determination and a strong belief are the keys.

2) Persistence to see through everything.

3) Resistance to give up and put the glasses back on.

The mind is so powerful.  We usually underestimate how powerful it is.  Our mind and our bodies are connected.  If one thing is out of balance, another one will be, too.

The book might not be for everyone.  It might not work for everyone, or others might not even try it.  There might be many skeptics out there.  However, these are my own experiences, and miracles do happen if you have a huge belief in them.  Here are other people’s experiences in a book review from Amazon book readers. Decide for yourself, be daring, but please use a common sense and be safe.

All since I can remember, I have a huge love for animals and birds.  In harsh winters, I would hand-make bird feeders and feed wild birds.  Birds knew me and as soon I would show up, I swear they would follow me.

We had pigeon chicks on our balcony.  One time, when chick fell off the balcony, I went outside searching for him.  Sure, I found him and put back in the nest, even though my little hands were scratched from chick’s sharp nails.  That was my very first rescue.

Then, there was my first time when I saw a fawn. My heart melted, as people were bottle-fed him.  I fell in love with deer.  I even had my favorite postcard with fawn on it.

Then I volunteered at Pelican Man Bird Sanctuary, where I was fortunate to hold young foxes, feed baby raccoons, baby opossums, baby squirrels, baby armadillo, fawns, deer.  We even received a baby bobcat once.  Since it was a bird sanctuary, we would receive different kinds of birds from chick to an adult, from songbirds to raptors to water birds.  I would feed them, administer medication and even help out vet.  I learned a lot at the sanctuary, not only about the species, but also their songs and behavior.  I can identify birds by their song in the wild most of the time.  Of course, I did some rescues myself, too, and you will find me bringing a turtle to another side of the road.

Animals and birds are in my heart.  They seem to trust me, and therefore, I am able to come relatively closely to them and capture them on my camera.  To photograph wildlife, I find this helpful:

1.  Take a photo from a longer distance, just in case if animal gets scared and runs away.  At least you’ll have a memory captured.

2.  It is really important to gain trust with animal.  Respect their wildness and their space.

3.  Have lots of love and care in your heart.  Animals are very sensitive to energies.  That’s how they survive.  I believe, they sense their world.  They sense if you are dangerous, or not.

3.  Read their body language.  For example, deer will stump its feet, if it senses a danger.

3.  Stop, do not make any sudden movements.  Freeze in a place, play like you are tree.

4.  Eyes is a huge communicator.  Do not stare at them.  If they sense you, lower your eyes.

5.  Stalk like a cat if you have to.  Inch slowly.  Try not to make sounds.  Animals are very sensitive to sounds, like snapping a branch.

6.  If there is a tree or bush, hide behind it.

7.  Gentle voice sometimes helps, and keeps them curious. (It might help or might not).  Once, while I talked very gently, wild Mom deer with little fawn went by very close to me.  As if, she understood me that I am not dangerous.

Here are some of many photos I took of wildlife.  It is great to be one with a nature:

 Eastern Cottontail rabbit

I captured this Nine-Banded Armadillo in the dark.  I had no idea that armadillos can stand up on the back legs.  Did you know they are really good swimmers, too?

Beach bunny.  I took this shot at Siesta Key beach.

Four trouble-maker baby raccoons.

Did you know American Indians call raccoons hand-washers?  They have very sensitive paws and they feel their food with them.  Therefore, if you see a raccoon eat, it looks like they wash their hands constantly.

That’s unusual-looking animal, isn’t it?  It is a Fox Squirrel, and it is so much larger than normal grey squirrel.

I handed this bread to squirrel.  She made a great poser.   As you can see from her nipples, she is having baby squirrels in her nest.

Baby mockingbird meets baby rabbit

My Little Poser

You can feel my excitement when I captured this beautiful deer family all out in the open!  Notice their ears.  One ear is turned to me, and other ear is turned behind them.  They are always on the lookout.

This deer gave a birth to a fawn right in this spot.  I saw a little one, but the grass was way too tall to capture him.  Plus, I kept a distance not to scare them.

A pregnant doe snacks on water plants.  I captured her through the fence.

Two deer in sunset light.

Well, hello there.  Two year old all grown up since I saw him as a little fawn.

A tender moment.  Once again, I shot them through the fence, giving them a distance and privacy.

Blowing blueberries at me.

Now you know why fawn has so many white spots.  It is easier to camouflage among wild flowers.

This fawn is just hours old.  Still had wobbly legs while walking.

A beautiful couple.

Close together.

This fawn is adventurer.  His curiosity always took him away from his mom and sibling.  He is a survivor and very independent.

I got really close to him.  He is smelling the air where I stand.  Deer are still near and dear to my heart.

Watch out!  A new Sheriff in town!

This is a Cattle Egret.  When they are not around cattle and horses, they are seen on top of cars.  I even saw some riding on the top of cars, even on one at speed of 45 miles per hour.

Osprey by her nest.  Ospreys are called fish hawks because they mainly feed on fish.

Can you spot an owl?  Great Horned Owl is perfectly camouflaged.  The only give away is when song birds or crows make a ruckus by screaming and yelling and even attacking the owl.

Beautiful Bald Eagle perched on the fence.  It is not a familiar sight where we are.

Juvenile Wood Stork.  Notice the fuzz still left on his head.  Also, notice how he stands.  He seems comfortable.

Sandhill crane with two chicks.  This scene made my heart melt.   Did you know that Sandhill cranes paint their feathers with stick and mud to better camouflage themselves?  Notice brown patches on adult?  That’s painted.

Please use caution.  Common sense and keeping distance, especially while photographing chicks or baby mammals are required.  Mom birds and Mom animals are very protective of their young.  So, if you sense they are uncomfortable from their body language, keep still or carefully leave.  It is not worth to scare them and putting your being in danger.  Animals are wild and it is their territory.  Got to be respective of them.

See Big Cat Love photography here.

Silence feels amazing when we quiet our chattering mind and outside noises, and just be: feel a gentle breeze in the hair, a warm sun’s touch on the skin and breathe.

Today I did just that.  I sat for a couple of minutes.  I thought how to keep my already so much improved vision longer at the time.  I get periods of 20/20 vision, but as I blink, it gets a bit blurry again going into about 20/30, 20/25 field.  The answer came: instead of keeping on narrow focus got to expand my vision, and it all starts with the heart.  I opened my eyes, and I could see every blade of the grass and every leaf on the tree.  It felt amazing.  The perfect vision stayed with me longer than usual.  Then, all of the sudden I saw a seemingly lifeless dragonfly in the water.  I touched it and to my surprise, he moved his wings desperately trying to escape.  Unfortunately, the wings were already submerged and the weight of water did not let it to fly.

I gently picked it up on my finger and wanted to put on the branch to dry it out.  He fought to stay on my finger, so I let it stay, and I chased off the wasp who tried to get him.  As his wings dried out, he started to move them in the breeze little by little.  When he got stronger, I put him on the branch.  He stayed there for a little bit and flew away…

So this is what I learned:

Narrow Focus => Expanded Vision = Seeing things that otherwise are easily missed.

With expanded vision and using our love, we can see more and hear more and feel more, and make a huge difference.  It might start with a dragonfly at first.  Then it might go to other things.  Small as a dragonfly and big as the world.  It is only a matter of perception.

Can you imagine how world would be if we would move ourselves from a narrow focus of everyday life to an expanded worldly vision and do everything from the heart?

I can’t thank enough my brother Max Spiker and author Jacob Liberman, O.D., Ph.D. for giving my eyesight back (see my previous post).  It feels so incredible!  Each day, I feel spurs of joy when I start seeing something new.  A few nights ago, for the first time I saw a Big Dipper, and the sky filled with the brightest stars.  I see more and more stars now.  All without my glasses!  Even nights became brighter.  Now, I started to see smaller street signs, numbers on mail boxes, a menu board at Starbucks.  Each new seeing is a victory.  According to the eye chart, I went from 20/200 to 20/30 in two weeks.  Now into 2 and a half weeks, I read 20/25 line, and saw 4 letters in 20/20 line.  I left my eyeglasses and I did not put them on since I started this journey.  I even drove through a little fog and in the rain day and night without glasses.  Interestingly, rain made my vision even more clearer.

My vision is not constant yet, but I have longer and longer periods of great seeing.  One blink – I see everything absolutely clearly, another blink – it becomes a little blurry (but nothing like it used to be), a third blink – all clear again.  When outdoors and in the car, I see it better than being inside in the artificial light.  Sometimes, I see double or triple, but with adjusting blink it goes to normal again.  When that happens, I think it would be neat to capture what I see on the camera:  like a triple moon or a handsome double guy.  LOL!  It all depends on light, my mood, my thoughts, how I react to people’s conversations.  If a person is stressed out, I find myself putting blur blinds because I feel that person’s energy, and I do not like it.  If the person is excited and enthusiastic, my vision becomes really clear.  The same is with my thoughts.  If I get excited, the vision becomes really clear.  If I start to worry about something, the blur comes back.  The blur is not like used to be, though.  I used to see only fog.  Therefore, when I would get up, I would automatically put glasses on.  Not anymore.  When I wake up, in the first minutes, my vision becomes clearer and clearer (especially in the last few days, as at first it would take 15 minutes to half an hour for vision to clear).  Also, if I stress to see, it does not work.  If I relax and breathe, I see so much better.  Interestingly, the faces I start to see are so smooth.  Still have a hard time to see them in a distance, but I’m working on it.  Again, outside I see them so much better than inside in the low light.

This experience is unbelievable, and I am determined to have a perfect vision.  I can’t believe I do not need glasses and contacts anymore.  Without glasses, I feel as if somebody lit up my world.  It is not everything about my vision either.  The whole outlook changes.  I feel like I am peeling blur layers one at the time.

First layer of blur is fear.  Some people are afraid to try this.  How can anybody go out in the world when all they see is blur?  Self-doubt sets in.  “What ifs” will boggle the mind.  I dove into this experience straight without any doubt.  If author could do it, so can I.  Bravery, determination, and persistence came into my world.

Second layer of blur is self-constriction and staying in the known.  Some people think, “It is great for you, but I’ll wear my glasses anyway.  I just got my new prescription.”   Although it was unfamiliar to me, I had no doubt I’ll succeed.  I opened doors widely to a new possibility of seeing, and I am succeeding.  Freedom came into play.  If I just breathe and relax, I see better.  If I stretch, freely dance, I see better, too.  When I dance, I express myself more through freeing motions.  I feel music with all my senses.  I let it flow through every fiber of my body.

Third layer of blur is a “wall of protection” (that’s huge for me).  To be safe, we often do not take chances.  When people hurt us, we start not to trust anybody.  We build a wall.  It is all about our thoughts and emotions.  Early memories might flow in, the way we felt before we needed glasses:  What we did not want to see, could not see a way out, did not understand.  I used to be really shy.  I did not trust anybody, including myself.  So, it might be one of the reasons why I had difficulty to see faces.  Right now, I’m re-framing my mind and the faces I see are so soft.  They become more clearer each day.  All it takes is to be open.

Life is incredible and I love seeing it without constricting glasses, fears, and self-limiting beliefs.  I want to see more, experience more, touch and feel more.  My self-expression is wide open.  Anything is possible, even a miracle of seeing, if we persist and really believe.

See how it all started: Seeing Miracle

See my latest update here: Mind over Body

Miracles do happen when we believe in them.  They are occurring every day, if we open our eyes to see it.  Literally…

My incredible brother suggested that what if I would take my glasses off and see.  I thought, “Are you out of your mind? I am blind without them!”  Then he told me about this book Take Off Your Glasses and See.  That sounded intriguing,  so I went to Barnes & Noble.  I asked at the desk, “Where can I find “Take off Your Glasses and See?” The lady looked at me offensively and said, “I beg you pardon?” She was wearing glasses.   Giggling inside, I bought the book.

As I started reading it, I could not put it down.  It all made sense.  I took my glasses off and start seeing the world.  It is only sixth day, and I am already driving without glasses day and night.  Every day, I am seeing more and more.  It is incredible!  I am living a miracle!

I wore glasses for around 24 years.  I thought I was doomed to wear glasses for all my life.  At first I hated them.  Then I got used to them.  Then I got contact lenses, and I loved lenses more.  I had no idea that our vision can be improved or restored.  Many people go as far as to get Laser surgery, when our eyesight can be improved naturally!!!

It is not only about vision.  It is about our mind and body connection!  It is about when we put our “blur blinds” on, what we are not willing to see, what we are afraid to face, what we do not understand.  It is about traumas in our lives and how we react to them.  It is about our fears, our hidden feelings, about how we see the world.  Eyeglasses and lenses are only our visual crutches.  We can see through them better, but they do not help to see and deal with reality.  It is like living behind the glass that makes everything smaller (if we have nearsightedness).  It is like living in aquarium with bottled up feelings.

It takes a courage to take off glasses and to have an open mind.  Eyeglasses, especially when we wear them for a long time, becomes our security blanket.  We see what we know, and what we know gives us comfort.  It is pretty scary to be without glasses when all we see is blur.  It is like walking in the unknown.  The miraculous change occurs if we are brave enough to keep glasses off.  We start seeing more clearly.  We got to be patient though.  It depends on our mental and emotional state.  If we feel down for some reason or get scared, the blur might come back, and we might be tempted to put glasses back on again.  It all takes is to be present and feel the emotions that we are not willing to feel.  We got to be brave to see through it no matter what.  If we persist, we might start feeling things that are unfamiliar that we wanted to block it off all our lives.  We got to feel them, express them, see through them.

In my first try of driving, I put glasses on the tip of my nose, just in case.  I wanted to see how it is like, so I drove some seeing through glasses, and some through my blur.  The next morning, I did the same, but I found that glasses were just in my way, so I took them off and put them by my seat.  To my amazement, the vision got clearer and clearer.  Right now, I feel like a grade school student after learning how to read.  I read businesses signs everywhere.  I started seeing street signs, some even in small print.  It is amazing!  I still can not believe it!  Right now, I am training my eyes to see faces.  I see them on and off, blurry and in all detail.  I had a flash of great vision where I could see faces across the street.  It is work in progress.   I am persistent, though.  I’ll break through that barrier, too.

Another thing is when I see the real world and not hiding behind glasses and contact lenses, I have surges of joy when I start to see more and more.  My heart is filled with love and passion.  I want to touch, see, feel, experience everything.  I want to push my limits, be brave.  I am already brave.  If I can drive without glasses, I can do anything!  I do not have limits anymore.  Everything feels more beautiful, more fuller, more bigger, more closer.  I am facing uncomfort straight.  I see it eye to eye.  Today for the first time, I left glasses on my desk.  Before I carried them with me in hands, just in case, like a security blanket.  Yes, it felt uncomfortable at first, but I made it!!!

I can’t wait for each day to see more.  The whole new world is opening up before me where I am brave to see through anything. My vision went from 20/200 to 20/60 in 6 days.  I have flashes of vision where I can read 20/50 and even some 20/40 line.  I even started to see more stars at night when before if I would see one, I would be lucky.  Thank you, my brother, and Jacob Liberman, O.D., Ph.D. (the author) for opening my eyes where I can live my life to the fullest.  Thank you from the bottom of my heart!  You are my heroes!

See my update here: Seeing Miracle Continues

See my latest update here: Mind over Body

Nature bring us wonders that can awe us and inspire us.  If we open our hearts and minds, and enjoy simple moments in life, we can notice things that will keep us speechless, boggle our minds, or simply warm our hearts and put a huge smile on our faces.

I feel that I’m one with nature.  I see things that people easily miss.  My imagination plays a big part in finding wonder in the smallest things.  Here are some of them for you to enjoy:

Seeing sunset through the building

Bug’s drawing of monkey

Natural Flower Cross

A Sea of Stars

Sun Halo

“Elvis” written in the Sky

A Huge Heart in the Sky

What did you see in nature lately that totally surprise you?

I go every morning to take care of our horses: feed them, brush them, hug them, kiss them.  It makes my mornings special.  Also, I get to see deer family.  There is one deer lives behind. She recently had 2 fawns.  They are so cute! It warms my heart.  I have pictures that I want to share with you and make you smile. Enjoy and have a great day!

I call him Spot, the Adventurer.  He often separates from his family to look for adventures. He is so curious about everything.

Here, Spot checks me out.

The Spot’s sibling that always sticks with Mommy

The Mommy Deer

Pregnant doe before the twins

And here is my most favorite family shot

See Wildlife love photography

Can you name a few?  It could be our family, friends and even strangers.  They are always there to help or some of them even will stop their lives and come unexpectedly for a rescue.

I got a flat tire the other night.  I put my “blinkers” on.  In about 15 minutes to half an hour many cars passed, but nobody stopped.  Even a cop car slowed down but did not stop to help.  I thought, “Fine, I’ll try to change it myself.”  I put “jack” under the car by feeling the “spot” with my fingers, and I started to lift it.  Unfortunately, I was not strong enough to lift a car.  All of the sudden, three young men (18 to early 20s) stopped and offered to help.  They changed my tire in great teamwork.  One was holding a cellphone as a flashlight, while I and other guy showed drivers to slow down.  The side street was dark.  To our surprise, one driver even sped up not paying any attention.  A man at neighboring house where I stopped, closed curtains and peeked through the window, as my “heroes” finished changing the tire.  They were such a young gentlemen, and I felt so blessed.  I thanked them for their help and we parted our ways.  I felt so grateful.

There are a few heroes that walk amongst us.  It’s a part of their nature to help someone in need.  While many people are oblivious to their surroundings, there are those who will do everything to help.  As I was going home, I wished so hard that something really good would happen to these three young men, my heroes.  The world is such a better place because of them.